So… This weekend has been interesting. In my opinion, I didn’t perform to the standard of excellence that I am capable of.
Flashback, the days were covered in prayer. I had the most amazing time with God in route to Saturday morning’s interview. The nerves started where the prayer stopped. I am not sure how you handle “expectation”, but when I am nervous it can feel heavy. When I opened my mouth to respond, I went blank. I got something out, but the comfort of all of the parables and verses that have taken residence in my heart drained right out. I came down really hard on myself, because I didn’t feel like it was a God smile moment.
I got to church today for me the strongest point was: OUR CHAINS MAY INFLUENCE SOMEONE ELSE’S CHANGE.
w o w…. The Apostle Paul endured so much, yet concentrated on joy in his epistle (letter) to the church at Philippi.
My entire weekend was almost spoiled because I focused on my shortcomings. I am choosing to turn my eyes to my Father. CHOICE! As long as I remember that “the joy of the LORD is my strength”, I have a focus. I can recall many times, old and new, of sheer divine deliverance. Today, I not only focus on those recollections, I am depending on the Father- Abba- Eloheim- Jehovah Jireh- to do it again!