Known for being transparent, honest, and broken…here goes
Today I stood in a room full of what we will just call the “members only” crew. Guess who waited alone in the corner for thirty minutes…I’ll wait. You probably guessed me, right?
ALEX TREBEK, tell them what they’ve won! (A pat on the back…good job folks!)
I often visit a place if isolation where I either feel invisible or different. I don’t always end up here voluntarily, but lately I think I have room and board.
People can be a lot of great things! They can also be mean, cruel, and downright nasty. Was that today’s case? Nope. Isolated still. Today I was isolated because I was a stranger. I was in unfamiliar territory. Don’t follow? (Ex: do all Christians know each other? No, really? Sure, we all have Christ in common…but that doesn’t mean we know all God’s people.)
At times, I want to be invisible. Exist without intercepting some of the challenges that people can bring. I have never been successful. Even in isolation today…I was complemented. My glasses, she’s so pretty, that type of stuff. Now the glasses, I directed them to the place I got em… Target. That pretty stuff? Pretty hurts (Beyoncé got that one right!). Pretty is the stuff stereotypes and magazines are made of. I don’t always agree. I am still praying that I see me the way God sees me.
Get this…I never get to hide from people. Not the means ones, the HAPPY ones, the standards, nor the abstracts. I was created to serve. I can’t wash feet, if the only feet near me are my own. Nor can you 😉
4 replies on “How I feel..”
Is being called pretty if they’re referring to you on the outside but haven’t saw the God in you on the inside a bad thing?
No, but I’ve had a hard time with compliments since I was a little girl.
I feel the same at times. Even when I try to be ducked off to myself, people still gravitate to me like a magnet. I guess it’s my genuine smile I give off or the fact I never come off as the “I don’t want to be bothered” type.
This was a really deep post. I connected with it because as an introvert, I sometimes feel alone and invisible in a room full of people. but like you say. Its what GOD sees in us. Peace.