Corrective Thinking

There is point in your life when you just stop making excuses

You look at things as they are without need to justify or defend

They are this way

This is not the way they will always be

My schedule will not always feel ridiculous because of school

One day it will be filled with busy good mornings

Prepped clothes and coffee mugs

It will be filled with the pitter patter of little feet

And the shuffling of slippers and dress shoes

One day… my day will be filled with family

So I will stop, now, complaining about a schedule that

Accepts no apologies

I will stop now, wondering when it will change

Because NOW, I have to manage even my time better

Now I have to make nights count

Because wife and mother are twenty four hours every day

Now I will control nutritional craves

Because I will have to teach by example

Now I will straighten and clean

Bleach and wash

Because one day, it will be up to me to steward my family

I will encourage myself

Because when he’s having a bad day, I might be having one too

But I’ll cover him anyway

Just like now, I cover him

I don’t know that I have met him

But I pray for him

Instinctively, because there is an alarm for it

I will do today what is preparation for today

Because what I do today

Blesses my tomorrow

Lord, please forgive me for complaining about blessings

That pile like burdens because sometime I mismanage time

Sometimes I mismanage emotions

But I will inhale gratitude and exhale praise

Because in the midst of all of this…

I am free to Live. Love. And write.

Ivy Out