The greatest test of character, for me, has not come in times accompanied by smiles or laughter. They come when I am fighting back tears, to save face. Or maybe, inhaling tears, so that they reverse into my ducts and keep me from coming unglued.
It is easy to say you trust Christ when it’s in your favor…but WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU FEEL LET DOWN? I’ll tell you what I did today. In my pre-ugly cry face, because I wouldn’t let the tears take over, I said, “It hurts, but I trust You.”
Why am I sharing?? Because I am not the only person whose prayers were answered with something different than what they prayed for. Does that mean that something amazing isn’t around the corner? Nope. It means that what I thought I wanted wasn’t for me right now. That’s a hard adult pill to swallow. So while I AM done adulting today, I am going to plant my feet, breath through the pain in my chest, and keep living. Life happens when we smile and when we frown, how we handle it is called maturity. (Might not be in the dictionary, but here it applies, ok?!)