There are seasons in life where you feel like every
challenge that comes up in your life is PERSONAL.
I know, I know, this is where you tell me don’t take anything personally, right?
Well, I did.
Insert the “I am getting older again reflection hamster wheel….” I should really have a zillion hyphens in the midst of those words, but not today. Anti-hyphen blog. Just jokes, laugh at my sarcasm, ok? Or at least, laugh in sympathy.
But this was different.
I will be thirty six in 18.5 days. That’s crazy. I feel like
I just turned 35. As I mature in age, like fine wine might I add, I realize
there is a cycle of what have I done with my life type questioning. Are you
following, with my missing hyphens and all?
Sometimes I feel like I have accomplished NOTHING at all, other times I marvel at what I have been blessed to accomplish. You see, when these feelings come up, the pendulum decides how I categorize them. Am I by myself?
If I am “feeling” blessed that day.. then I get excited and count my blessings. If I am “feeling” down that day, I am counting my hit and misses. Which honestly, are all lessons. Lessons teach more than victories do, but Lord keep sending the victories!
I really felt like I should have blogged months ago. But I couldn’t. Today, I must. Nothing is random. I believe the reflective thoughts we have allow us to shift our perspective. I can recognize areas of growth. I pray ALL DAY LONG. Not the long drawn out sweat and tarry prayers…but sometimes a quick “fix it Jesus” or “Lord please help me”. I find myself surrendering more – thanking God for the split second saves that seem to stand out more to me. Are you familiar with the Reticular Activating System (RAS)? The RAS makes sure to filter out unwanted or unneeded info – so when someone says you are a non-factor…they are basically acting as a RAS lol. It’s also the reason why the minute something is fresh on your mind/heart you notice it EVERYWHERE. Well, I having been sharing a concept that is a reality for me.
“WHEN LIFE HAPPENS, LOOK FOR THE GOOD. When you can’t find
the GOOD, look for the GOD moment.” – #andonniaspeaks
I wish I could claim some mammoth check for the value of
that truth, but alas I cannot. It’s just FACTS. We are quick to quote Romans 8:28
but let’s highlight ONE word… ALL. That means not everything that you will encounter
feels good. Insert adult pout. However comma ALL things work for my GOOD. Secondly,
wilderness seasons have a place. What we can frequently call a wilderness season
may in fact be a wellness oasis. Perspective people.
What are you talking about Andonnia?
I’m glad you asked.
When Jesus fasted for forty days and forty nights, and was
tempted, he was AWAY.
The children of Israel had to travel to get to the promised land, and all though they prolonged their stay, they had to travel AWAY from the others.
John the Baptist was prepared in the wilderness AWAY from others until it was time.
Maybe God is preparing you AWAY from the noise. AWAY from people who are not your assignment. Maybe, God has your next around the corner, but you have to submit to your now. Any by you, I really mean me. You see, when we find value in where we are…it doesn’t hurt AS bad. The pain of the process is relative. As children, when gift giving holidays came up, we didn’t mind waiting because there was a calendar date attached to the expectation. As adults, we don’t mind waiting as long as there is an expected delivery date. Just because we don’t know the date doesn’t mean THE GIFT isn’t coming. THAT is the key!
I don’t know what your gift is. But I hope you take this season VERY PERSONALLY. I hope you personally improve. I hope you personally grow. And I pray you are PERSONALLY rewarded for your obedience in your NOW.
P.S. I did a thing… https://andonnia.wixsite.com/andonniaspeaks/she-speaks
Additional P.S. – to hear the last message God gave me to preach -> https://youtu.be/fZ3wtUFzPh8
I love you, and there isn’t nothing you can do about it.
IVY OUT. #andonniaspeaks